Thursday...

Ok I was suppose to go to work at 7 this morning and I am reallllllllly upset that I couldn't AFFORD to go to work. HOW screwy is this??? I could not afford to go to work. It is 15 mins away at Staples in Hendersonville. I LOVE LOVE LOVED it!! TOTALLY! the people were awesome warm and were beyond excited to have me there! Kinda like going to church! It was a wild experience. Wednesday I went in and took the kids to day care for the first time in their life. When I got there they were like I need a check for 63 dollars from today. (I DON"T HAVE IT IN THERE BUT I WROTE IT) I was like OK> wow. If I pay 63 dollars today and 63 dollars tomorrow and 63 dollars Friday.... HOW IN THE WORLD. Of course their father came up with an excuse that I didn't put them in a day care in SC so he didn't feel he should have to help me. It is 40 dollars cheaper down there BUT I would make it up in gas. Plus my friends wouldn't be able to help me come time for clinicals. His friends said they would help. One has 5 kids or something like that and then the other one smoke. NO. I don't think so. Oh and his parents... his mom calls my kids Bas***d children and she hates my guts. Right like I really want my kids around her either. fyi as of thursday of last week the 3rd she still felt that way, still from Sept. 2007. wow. The kids don't need that kind of tension they have been through enough this year in changes they don't need that horrible feeling of knowing that someone hates you.

So anyways I had to call out completely on my second day of work. I just want to feel real again. Not dependent on this boy that has done everything in his weak power to ruin me but it isn't going to work. I hold my head high and I carry my self with pride.

Through all this going on... I made the highest grade in my nursing class on our first test. It was an 87. not so good but I am proud that it is the highest! One other girl made a 87 as well so I guess I wasn't the only highest but what I have been through this week Thank you GOD for allowing me to have my focus on what is going to allow me to move forward in life! OH and an 81 on my nutrition test. :)

Well I must end this the twins are screaming at the top of their lungs because they want in my lap! Then they get in my lap they fight over it so no to both!

will continue... much love.