Independence Day!

Rock out!!! I am glad today is a day of independence it represents alot more then just for our USA for me. I can put double meaning behind it. Six months being single and striving to better my life for my kids! First time since college I have lived by myself it is harder then you think! Then again rhythm is the key. Once you take your step to the right direction just keep it consistent.

Ok. I am not a big reader but I have to read alot for school so my reading time is limited to my "office hours" I am reading "There Are No Mistakes" by Eleanor Wiley was a ragging alcoholic that had to face alot to be able to accept life for what it is. it was sent to me by a lovely lady that I met from working in Greenville many a years she is also the first person that knew I was having twins< she rocks!! Thus far the chapters I have read have been fabulous.
1. Honor Where You Came From I don't remember reading this part yet... the authors intro said take the chapters as you find them interesting...
2. own you Own Pain, Hurt, and Vulnerability< Yeah haven't gotten to that one yet either... I need to good part of getting REAL
3. Accept Yourself! This was a very long chapter it had alot of hard facts to face... what you get back what you put out! So you really have to stop and make yourself think what do you really want back in life when you stop being so careless and self loathing do you want everyone else to treat you like that or do you want to give it all so when there comes a time in life and you may be on the other side of that giving you will be taken care of by great care givers. Acceptence is not a way of saying "I GIVE UP" this focused on aging and getting older... during her process of dealing with her alcoholism she would say "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference" That those that have made peace in life are those that they one of the only constants in life is CHANGE. As long as you remain resilient and flexible and move with grace from one situation to another. Resilience is taught by the school of hard knocks! Accepting our Feelings and STOP denying them to be discussed. Accept that you made a wrong choice... Wow this is a great part... this had a long example but the end was that taking a great leap of faith offers us a chance to discover our own strengths, learn from our intuition and it jolts us awake and it calls on us to accept ourselves as we are!!! Accepting that we don't have to = and often Can't do it all! Our generation is a great example of this. Keeping up with the Jones... you got to slow down enjoy your family and friends more then the material side of the american dream. Pracitce I'm Okay. Saying thank you without excuses. Just Say THANK YOU. Accepting what we are good at! Don't down play it. when someone admires your work believe them. accept their admiration and if you enjoy it DO IT! Don't put it aside as a favorite past time you can't help that you are good at what you do. God gave us that talent and we need to make sure we are keeping it warm and not forgotten about!

Told you that was a long chapter...
4. Tell your Story- and Allow it to evolve
this chapter covers what causes us to stop sharing our stories, Make sure it is factual, that feeling of being a burden > I hate sharing my story sometimes it makes people feel uncomfortable and if they can't help then they feel guilty of something odd... it is really weird to see people's faces change when something not the most pleasant is shared. Owning our part, Finding the right place for sharing your pain, then the only constant is Change.
5. Laugh at yourself
When you are able to see the lighter side of your life it does get easier. Then again don't laugh then cry on the inside...
6. Find Community

I am just starting on this chapter but thus far it is looking like networking your life and becoming part of something beyond yourself.

I will keep you guys posted on this it seems hitting home at the most perfect of times.

I am going to go to bed I was suppose to be doing home work We have done over 17 chapters these past 4 days and Monday is the first day to wear our scrubs... yeah!!! I am going to be feeling and looking like a real nurse... Hi, may I please take your temperature :) hehehehe After Monday I will be able to do blood pressure and I am officially can wash my hands properly ;) and I got a big paper due tomorrow and another job interview at 2. Hopefully they will offer more then 7p/h. If not then the hunt will continue! Wish me luck! I have been dying to share this book on here every time I read it I say OOO I want to share that... I don't think I covered all that I really wanted to say about it but I will go chapter by chapter now... there is only 12 chapters so we will be done shortly :) love and kisses to my invisible readers.