alive, drepressed, and finding that word lonely creeping...

Yet, then again, I am able to move forward. On the 3rd I took my PSB aka, Nursing (RN) Entrance exam. I had an amazing weekend prior to it and just really feel like it may have been a good week over all. Then I made the mistake of thinking I could possibly be 'dating' someone and asked them that... LOL lets put it this way. I haven't heard from them again since then lol. ok. I know I am a single mom but am I missing something?? I guess so. I am ok with that. It gives me something else to laugh at. :) So my lonely feeling can just stick around. I need a dog. I think I am going to go see my doc and say look i need a dog give me a reason to get one beyond me saying I need one. I think I am going to look for a well trained and house broken one that needs lots of love.

Depression. Yikes. I might say I have it. lol ya think. On the 8th I really felt beyond control of it all. Tears of break down tears. I had to do a shout out for some prayers to even get it under control. My girls pulled it together for me and HE IS AMAZING. the tears stopped. I gave it to Him. I am exhausted of the emotional twisting he has shoved down my throat. I was given an ultimatum Monday that I never in a million years thought I would ever hear. It involved doing things to get my girls back that I refuse to do. I will not sink to that level any more 3 and a half years is enough I fell for it over and over again. I am not on my own any more and I will not tolerate it. My spirit is stronger then what it has ever been. I live with a spirit of grace and peace. "my feet are grounded in peace" I know I forget that to many times in a day but sitting here I KNOW it. The devil blinds us. He attacks us. He tries to damage us in ways we never thought possible. (or at least I thought)

Test I find out if I made one of the ten spots on the 17th. Nervous. Ha. understatement. So far for this semester I have an A average. I take my state boards for butt wiping on the 24th. My graduation party for that class is on the 30th.

busy wednesday month for sure! Glad only 2 more left or I am not sure I could handle many more of them. :) hehehe

GREAT NEWS the Guardian at litem is coming Sunday after Church!!! That is the attorney that speaks on the behalf of my babies. He comes to the home and sees the babies and how they enter act in my home and with me. I couldn't be happier for someone to see my side that isn't bias. I love all of you but bias does come naturally. Speaking of which I am needing people to testify on my behalf in court. Please contact me ok??